i believe there is only a thin line between love and lust...just like the thin line that separates love and friendship...
i have never found myself in a situation wherein i am finding myself in...i cannot believe that i allowed it to happen plus the fact that it continues to happen and i cant stop! its not something that i long for or something that i would think about on a daily basis but the moment he wants to talk or be with me, i cant say no....so question is, is it all because he is exciting? or im actually in love with this guy?
and there is another guy who i can say is the man of my dreams..someone that i can grow old with...someone whom i know will be a good father, a good provider...but why cant i just fall? why cant just this heart of mine go for him and stop the craziness with the other guy...
thing is i am who i am...no matter how good or how great my life or relationship with someone if there is no challenge for me i usually don't go for it...i know i should change that state of mind...i should want what is safe and lasting and comforting at this stage of my life, not what is exciting or pulse rising...
but there is no such thing as mind over matters of the heart...
