TELL ME...

writing has always been a therapy...everything that im feeling i would be able to pour out... i have been wanting to write for such a long time but it just hurts too much that i cant put into words what it is i am feeling or how much i am hurting... all i ever wanted is to be happy and to be loved...and all i ever wanted is the best for you... but i guess going against all odds doesnt mean we will have our happy ending.. doesnt it suck that we went through so much in such a short time and gave up on the love that i though would carry us through... so many things has been said and done there is this one question in my mind that i just cant let go and would just like to ask was you...tell me...where did i go wrong? was my love too much that it suffocated you? that i put you first above all things that i lost along the way the girl that you loved... i used to feel your heart..i still feel your heart...and it scares me whenever i cant... i used to know how to love you or to make you laugh..or make sense to you...now i fell like im talking to someone who doesnt want to feel anymore...who is so lost and so detached that i cant reach..i dont know how to reach you... i dont want to lose you...i just want to continue loving you and taking care of you and making laugh...but i dont know if that is what you want...i feel like when you are with me i just make you miserable or i remind you of alot of things...all the bad things... so i guess being together even if we love each other is not enough...the bad things didnt make us stronger...it broke us apart...and i also cant stand the thought that even if we are together and that you love me...i dont know how to love you...and that i cant make you happy...