THE ONE

I come boldly, trusting only your redeeming love
Flowing freely from your side your atoning blood,
Like a river, like a fountain, like a cleansing flood
I pour out my worship to you, FOR YOUR REDEEMING LOVE...

This is one of my favorite songs of worship, maybe because i one of those you have been redeemed so many times by HIS love and was given the strength that i was given to be able to rise above the darkness that usually come over me... i am still fucked up, i still give in to temptations easily or like the playing with fire kind of thing,but i think i am able to stop myself just in time before now or know how to take control when i need to take control...


i guess one of the things in my life that i have yet to really control or at least take charge over is my heart....it usually fucks me up that's why at this stage in my life i really just wanna do away with it....i always fall for the wrong ones and never do i go for what is safe and comfortable...i really am must be crazy to let go of someone who is everyone's dream guy...i just cant do it...i just cant fall! i tried so hard...maybe i am pushing myself so much that i don't want to fool myself specially him that i may also be feeling the same thing...God knows how much i wanted to love him... He loves with no conditions as well and so straightforwardly and i would love to be love that way but its just not happening...i just wouldn't fall...


so, now back to the drawing boards...I'm waiting and praying again for HIS one...