I felt that i came into full circle this year...i find myself out of job and out of dreams after soaring for quite a few years...its exhausting...that i just wanna stop and be carefree and not be worried about the everyday stresses and tresses and of the corporate world...of course i wouldn't deny the fact that at the back of my mind i know i need to have a plan b already gearing up and ready to launch again...2010 was such a painful year for me...all i can think of was crying all the time and being hurt or angry at myself...im always at crossroads that i got super tired to the point that i stopped fighting the tides as well...i just went with the flow as to not to think or feel or care...caring too much, thinking too much takes a lot from me...aside from the fact that i usually get disappointed in the end...though i know that its not supposed to be the case...i am still recovering from what happened to Star-Cell...as i have told dear friends and close colleagues that i am broken-hearted...thait t i felt like my family got broken and there was no way i or we can fix it...its losing losing the guy that you have been seeing for a long time and suddenly just like that you are not seeing each other anymore....i was asked wether i was sad...and i answered i have been sad for a long time...and that is the truth..i am...since the time that things turned downhill i feel it in my gut but just wouldnt acknowledge it...i mourned for the brand and the company the whole of december...i will forever miss everything about it though i am forever grateful for everything that it has brought me...i know i am made of tough stuff because i am from and learned if not the best but one of the best in their respective fields and i cant help but be overwhlemed and grateful for all of that...3 huge chapters of my history has come to an end in 2010...a love that could have last a lifetime....a friendship that could have transcend distance and a brand and company wherein i grew professionally....
So it is a full circle....time for me not to pick up the pieces but let it rest because thats how i should treat it and start anew...I am claiming 2011 as the year wherein what is for me by God's grace will be given...
Posted on LiveJournal January 17, 2011
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