Thus the journey of love begins...I remember perfectly that day..i was bored in the office with nothing much to do but be on facebook...i suddenly saw your name online and i said "hi" and you said "hello" and my God you had me with hello. Until now i was amazed on how fast things happened... It was a flurry of mails and once in a while phone calls...To be honest it started as something that was exciting for me...Knowing for a fact that we cant be together plus the geographical factor we both are in, i thought it wouldnt hurt to continue what we started. But boy was i so wrong...i suddenly found myself dangerously falling for you...looking forward to your mails in the morning..getting sad if its not the first thing that i see in my mailbox...the exchange of photographs just making each other laugh...how i hated it when you ask for pics of me...how you encourage me when i was preparing for a big pitch...how concerned you were when i got sick...how i would panic everytime the wifi in the house wouldnt work and its a weekend...how suddenly...i needed you so much...i never dared question myself then what i was doing...i never let myself think of the consequences that will follow...or how painful it would be....or how much i was loving you already...I guess both of us knew then that it will go nowhere thats why we were never scared to say what we feel...we were just scared to drive each other away if we would be really honest...i was so damned furious at you for being everything that you are because i know i cant have you...and more furious with my heart because for the first time it won...i didnt follow my mind...i didnt question what i was doing...i just followed my heart...and in doing so, i soon realized how steadfast my heart could be when it is set free...being loved by you is intoxicating...like a drug that i couldnt live without, but when the time came that you decided to let go because there was no other way..i found myself silently loving you and wishing you well and missing you and hoping that you'd come back...
written:September 20, 2009
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