when darkness falls...

When relationships end, we would always tell each other or convince ourselves that love was never the problem or never the issue…It was either time, or trust or insecurities, or disappointments or expectations not met. Most of the relationships I have been, ended due to either one of the above or to simply put it just didn’t work out.There are a lot of reasons I could think of why you stay in a relationship. Sometimes it's because of convenience, sometimes you are used to the person already, or you have been together for ages that it doesn’t make sense to let go of all those years…Finally deciding to take that step takes a lot, its not easy being alone, its not easy getting up knowing its not the same anymore, that the world you have gotten so used to and the person that you wake up for each day will not be there. Sometimes you just don’t want to go on anymore because the pain is unbearable.I remember that it helps to be able to talk about it, because definitely there would be a lot of questions that you can come up of a lot of answers as well, and the roller coaster emotions that you feel can be tiring. You will be angry, you will be bitter, you will hate yourself, you will blame the other person…and then suddenly you find yourself understanding everything…missing, loving again, wanting to get back…it’s a cycle…But like all other pains and heartaches, it dulls in time…though there's no guarantee when this will happen…you just have to take it one day at a time until its all gone, maybe not completely but you will one day feel hopeful again, willing to take a chance at love again…and finally say I have moved on…